i want to write soooooooooooo much but my mind crashing everything in my head all at one time and i just want to write how i feel… i just want you to know how i feel… maybe writing isnt good enough to put down and action are hard for me to do… nothing that i say will have u wanting to run into my arms and be with me… nothing i do will make u feel lik i should be the one u end your life with and really thats all i want… thats really just it… i cant find my way anywhere but ive always seem to make it back to your heart and have you loving me… BUT SOMETHING IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH… SOMETHING IS NOT PERFECT, AND SOMETHING NOT RIGHT… and it suck… and thats the only part that hurts me and nothing else… ill never find try love or ever anyone…
No one wants me… not even myself
Why dont anyone wants me? i hate being single and i hate being alone…
All I want to know is… Who wants the ugly girl?
I wish I had a plan for my life.
But I don’t. It’s like I’m just going through the motions. Everyone else seems to be moving on and I’m just stuck in the same place.
i am sixteen years old and i don’t know anything about life. neighter of love nor of friendship. i don’t know how to talk to people or how to comfort them. but i know how to build walls around yourself. i know how to hide behind them. i know how to built masks to hide what nobody is supposed to…
That hit the nail of how I feel… Took every word right out of my head…
I hate this feeling…. Got up ten mins ago thinking about you… Crying about you… Why do I feel like the hopeless nerd? The one that spends her while life chasing after this popular girl that’s I can never get because she think of her in no other way but a nerd… I feel like that plus a hopeless heart… For me going through all of this, I feel so ugly and also like I can’t and want ever find anyone for me…. Maybe because I want
I’ll be writin about the pain and the hurt I feel and felt.. I’m going to lay it all out on the table, so as I lay my last words out for you… You’ll understand how much I went throw…. I was 17 when I first met you and I’m 21 now and in July I’ll be 22… If we go by age of how long we knew each other it would be five to six years… You were my very first girl I did any and everything with… I fell for you fast and hard and love you quick… Nothing matter in the world but you and me…. We both was talking to each other but also in love with someone else… We started off bad and fighting and look how we are ending! The same way we stared! BAD! We started with me lying saying I didn’t love you. When all that time I did love you. I said I didn’t love you because I didn’t want to believe it. I didn’t want to believe I could fall in love with a girl so hard so fast and so easy ( sorry I never told you this) but I was afraid and I couldn’t talk to anyone about it and you didn’t make it no easier for me either. All I just wanted to know was with all the feelings I had for you true… But after a while I didn’t care and just took a chances and gave it my all and still to today my all wasn’t good enough. While I was taking chance you were always in the mood to hurt me and kick me down. You couldn’t let me get up before you kick me down again (that’s when the depression kicked in bad)
I drink so I can get faded; I get faded so I feel numb. I thizz so I can actually feel good, but at the end; the pain will always be there.
True statement
Everyday I feel better and stronger and smarter! Everyday is a new day and time and hour and I love it! Im better because of myself and I’m kickin everyone out that mess that up! I really do love my life and happy about it 100%… But this time I’m keeping at it… I feel like the girl in 9th grade, didn’t need anyone and just about doing big things and living my life :)
